Happy 2nd Birthday, sweetheart!

In some ways, I can't believe two whole years have gone by already. And in another way, it seems like it was just yesterday. I still remember that whole morning. It was a regular morning just like any other time something "bad" happens. BUT I do remember taking a shower and noticing she wasn't moving. I even remember saying, 'are you awake in there?' But I shrugged it off and went downstairs and that's when it all changed. My morning doppler routine had finally become my worst nightmare (and being so nervous as it was, I had imagined this day), the day I would check and not hear a thing. I remember calling the doctor. I remember the long car ride to the doctor's office, then the five second car ride across the lot to the hospital to confirm she was gone. I remember the phone calls. I remember being ushered into the OR the "back" way, so I wouldn't have to go in the regular L & D entrance and see the "happy side" of everything. It all seems so fresh. 

So, it was another bittersweet day, especially with her little brother here. But love was definitely felt from a lot of others in the babyloss community (and some friends/family). I can't say by everyone, but I definitely felt true friends and family remembered and cared. 

A few were kind enough to make some pictures for Alexandra and here are a few from what we did for her today. It wasn't a lot, but it was something. Thank you all who have shown support to me and Alexandra. I know I haven't been on in a long time, but I'm still here. :)  I just need to...quit my job or something, lol. Who needs work anyway? j/k. But that's what is taking up all my "blogging" time lately. You are missed! 

This is Joshua, her little brother. He's 9 months old now. He loves taking her butterfly with him to daycare every day. So bittersweet!!!!