Good moods

I'm in a lighter mood today. I don't know if it's because the sun came out for the first time here in a few days or what, but my mood is lighter. I never know what to make out of my so called, "good moods" anymore because from history something has been lurking in the corner to bring me down in a matter of seconds. So what is it? A call from my sister-in-law? More baby news from someone I never saw coming? None of you of course! Baby news in this community is somehow welcoming and brings me genuine joy for whomever it may be. What is going to kick me in the ass this time? Bring it I say! This time I'm ready! Ha ha...maybe not. It just goes to show you how much this changes you. Before if I was in a good mood I wouldn't think anything of it. Now I question it and wonder what bad thing will happen next just because that's what I expect and what I have become accustomed to these last four months. It's probably not the best way to live, but I can't help it. I'll enjoy this good mood of mine while it lasts. I'm in a good mood, but I still carry and feel a heavy heart if that makes any sense at all. I feel like my heart can break any minute, but at the same time I'm feeling good.

So, I'll leave this post on another high note and also with another little remembrance of Alexandra. I received this from Jaime at Handprint On My Heart. She created indelible ice images in memory of her daughter, Claire. To read more of her story of how this was created and to see her blog, check it out here. I love her site. It not only has her blog in it, but it has all sorts of resources about grief and loss. Anyway, thanks Jaime for Alexandra's name in ice! :)  I really love them!