Beat down

After the last week, I feel like I have been beat down and I don't like it. I hate that the minute I start to feel the smallest amount of my normal self, something or someone swoops in and takes all of that away from me. It frustrates me. It makes me angry. It's upsetting and the worst part of it all is the person or thing that has made me feel that way goes on with their stupid life as if if nothing happened. Nothing changed for them, but to me it's just another thing to add to the list of things that suck about this terrible loss. Things can only go up from here, right? I hope so. I'm tired of the downs and I think I have had enough! Today I actually feel better despite everything I have said, but I still feel like I've been pushed back down into my little pit. I'm not sure if that even makes any sense! So, I hope the next week I can start to crawl out of this pit, but I feel like it's going to take a long time. One thing that has helped is I received this from Antoinette. It could not have come at a better time! Thanks Ann for giving me a nice end to my hellish week! :-)