A little more like me

Wow, I cannot tell you how aggravated I am that I just finished writing an entire post and for whatever reason I get "Internet Explorer has encountered a problem, send or do not send error report?" Argh!! WTF!!! With that being said, there goes my eloquent post for today!

Anyway, I will try and remember what I said. I feel a little more like Maggie today. I think it's the sun. It hasn't been out the past couple of days and I think a little vitamin D helped. I love the rain though. Waking up and hearing it rain on my window makes me feel so happy and I always just want to stay in bed listening to the rain. But days when it's just plain overcast and grey...depressing. Maybe a little sunshine helped. Sunshine is good for the soul and a broken heart.

Today I bought Mother's Day cards for my Mom and Mother-In-Law without any problem. I almost feel like I reached some kind of milestone. I never thought buying a Mother's Day card would be considered something to be proud of one day. I saw cards for 'New Moms' and cards for 'From Granddaughter to Grandma'. I want to buy those cards...but instead I went over to the garden aisle to see if there were any butterfly stakes that I could put next to Alexandra's grave because hers blew away during the winter. Boo. That's what I call DE-PRESS-ING. But in some weird way I felt peaceful and good doing it. I was buying something for my baby and it made me feel happy. Some Moms buy their kids toys to play with. I buy my daughter things for her grave so it doesn't look empty and alone. Double boo. But the important thing today is I felt a little more like me and I haven't felt like that in days. The whole baby shower thing really got me down and I didn't even go! What happens when the baby is finally here? I'm afraid to even think. We'll cross that bridge once it's here. For now, I'll just be glad I'm me today. :-)